It sent a shiver of disgust up my spine. I started to become quite nervous there on the floor. I really began to think that I was out of my league, an... that either Matt was as well, or that perhaps Matt wasn’t really looking out for me. At the same time that these doubts arose my continued desire to please Matt, to be the woman he wanted me to be, felt so strong that I couldn’t even consider disobeying him. So I just focused my attention on him; I looked at him and kept looking at him. Matt. Do you understand?” Mrs. Taylor stared at the young woman.Tina Carlisle nodded and was soon back in position over the large dining room table. Jessica White had walked to the far side of the table and took her niece’s wrists in her hands and held her down, looking over the woman’s back and across at Peter Mitchell as he stood there nervously with the cane in his right hand.“Twelve strokes young man and don’t go easy on her. You do that, then we’ll thrash that sorry arse of yours. Am I making. I tossed it to the floor.She was now standing before me in only her bra and panties. She was breathing more heavily through her nose and I saw that her eyes were bright, almost feverish.“You’re enjoying this, aren’t you, Nadine?”Startled, she began to shake her head in vehement denial…then stopped. I watched her taking stock of herself: a questioning, inward look, followed slowly by a look of unwilling acknowledgment…and finally a look of shame. “Ohhhhh…” she breathed, and fell silent, her. Talking to Connie helped some, but Barbara knew that it was just a temporary reprieve. The problem still existed and the blues would soon return.It was a few days after Barbara and Connie talked when Barbara came home from work and things reached a turning point. Barbara had had an early shift that day, and when she came home Tommy was nowhere to be found. She thought at first he had not come home from work, or maybe he was at Connie's house. So she went ahead and changed her clothes and then.